I'm still here

 Since my last post almost 2 years passed by. I love writing and I couldn't find the time to do it. Why? Because I have 3 small children and the eldest one is only 6. My hands are full, especially since our third baby was a boy... Boys are very different from girls. My son keeps me so busy that sometimes it's already night time when I realize I haven't sat down for 5 minutes all day. Anyway...I love being a mother of course but I need to find some time to do my things as well. 

Sometimes I ask myself (ok, not sometimes, but every single day...) that how do the other mothers do it??? They look so much more organized than me. I want to write my own book but after the kids go to bed I don't even have the sterngth to read other's books... I want to build duplo houses with them all day long but I have to cook, clean ect. and I find myself thinking about it at night that I didn't play with them enough and the house is still a mess. But you know what? I rather have a sticky kitchen any time than sad children who long for their mommy. :) I'm sure I'm not alone with these feelings and maybe other well organized looking mothers look at me on the street and think the same about me. Who knows? I always have a smooth hair so maybe I don't look like a lunatic. :D

I'm 32 now but I still remember how it feels to be a kid. Dressing baby dolls and painting with my fingers with my kids help me to remember. And that is so important. Parents shouldn't become too serious. Just 2 days ago I drew a complete kitten face for all my children and me because my 4 year old daughter asked me to. We had fun. :) Children need these things. To laugh, to see their parents as funny, crazy people.